Wow, I can't seem to remember the last time I posted a journal entry. Haha. Oops, life has just been way hectic lately - tyvm yr 12. Ughness. Well, let's see..besides the shizzload of work that just keep piling up, life has been pretty good. Halloween partay last week at Jessies which turned out awesome! We went trick or treating then headed back to hers for a swim and lots of dancing. :D Met a guy there but asdmajsds, his younger than me. I'm content with just being friends with him though, so that's ok. But I seriously have a thing for halfies. The crossing of nationalities creates such pretty children. :D

Australian weather went wacko on Tuesday. It was freaking 35 degrees in Spring time. aksljdkasd. Wtf. Lunch was spent having a water fight outside the old canteen which was pretty fun. Hehe. Rocked up to maths looking soaked and retarded, but at least I was cool for a while.

Doubt I'd be blogging much later on. I'm starting to fall quite behind in all my hw, and I still have tutor three times a week, so I practically have no life these days. ): Can't wait till schoolies this time next year. :D

I'm officially in year 12. Wowzers. I still can't believe it's my last year of actual school. It's crazy. Today turned out alright. Got two yearly exams back, and basically got the year 12 lectures on how we should be starting to study right about now. Oh yay, first day back and we're already getting pushed to leave our social lives behind. On other boring news, I finally finished reading East by Edith Pattou which turned out to be quite an interesting read. The beginning started off really slow with a bit too much background information and not enough drama, but the second half of the book picked up nicely. My heart felt warm and cuddly by the end which I love feeling after I finish the last sentence. I currently just picked up Wings by Aprilynne Pike again, after having left it unfinished to devour other books in its place. The plot is also starting to unravel in Wings, so I'm glad I told myself to finish the book before breaking open another one. Nothing else I can think of that I want to say besides hoping that this term will pass quickly so the Summer holidays can roll around quicker. 9 weeks, ugh.

I've managed to sleep more than what's considered healthy this past week. Dad thinks it's because of the social on Saturday. Speaking of the yr 11 social, my gaaaawd, one of the best nights of my life. I killed my feet on the dance floor (how do people do it, my heels were only 10cm and I hear about people dancing in 6inch heels wtf) and it throbbed for two days after. We managed to get an apartment at Star City and I tired myself out further in a pillow fight. xD Was meant to go to work the next day, but got someone to call in sick for me. And to make it even worse, it was daylight savings. Fml. Which meant we all lost an hour of sleep. But the night was memorable. It was on a boat. The only let down was that it rained. :( All 265 people were confined to one level, but luckily, the boat was big. All in all, spectacular night. :D

Now that it's over though, it's finally hit me that I'm in year 12. -glomps-
:(

Exams were officially over yesterday, so Angie and I went to Bondi to do some last minute shopping for the Yr 11 Social tomorrow. As excited as I am about the cruise, I also have a feeling that something unexpected is going to happen. Good/Bad feeling? No idea yet. I know I'm just so glad I'm on holidays now, so I finally have time to go through my 'To Be Read' pile. :D Yay. I managed to stop at Borders before leaving today to add two more books to my pile:

• Graceling - Kristin Cashore
• The Poison Throne - Celine Kiernan

Since the last time I've made any mentions of my book pile, I've finished reading Wicked Lovely and Ink Exchange by Melissa Marr as well as The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale. The Goose Girl had my heart, but I was a bit disappointed with Melissa's books. I had high expectations for them, and they just didn't meet my standards unfortunately. :( But, they were still quite an enjoyable read..just not as great as I'd thought they'd be. I'm currently reading The Book of A Thousand Days by Shannon Hale, and although it's good, I can't wait to finish it so I can move on. I have a habit of doing that to books. Some I can't even manage to finish as I get sudden urges to pick up another book.

I guess I use reading as an escape when times get hard. Mum just told me my Aunt's funeral will be on Tuesday. I've never been to a funeral before, but I expect I'd do quite a bit of crying and a lot of hugging. I don't know what to expect on the day and what to say. Hopefully, it'll come to me when it does. Talking about death reminds of the this article I read on yahoo.com.au just then:  Wow, this post is seriously long. I guess I just wanted to get everything off my chest. I'm done now. End rant. Yay. :D

I am unsure of what to say right now. Mum just came into the room, telling me that my aunt passed away. I am in so much shock, I feel stunned and speechless. I don't know how I can comfort my cousins..we've never been in such a situation before. They've had to deal with a divorce and now a death? My heart goes out to them. Wayne, the younger one has been hanging out with gangsters and those other bad kinds of people. I know he can't continue like this, but what influence do I have over him anyway? It's his life, and there's not way he'd listen to me over his friends. I can only offer my support and love. Our family might not be the tightest anymore, but we're still family, and we share the same blood. I would always be there for him, as well as his sister, my older cousin. She'd only just turned 21, this was meant to be her year. She's nearly done with university, and now this happens. My heart really aches for them.

R.I.P Auntie Michelle, I'll always remember you. <3

I have less than 3 weeks until I'm in year 12. ARRRRGHaskdjalksdj
I'm scared, but in a way excited. People say year 12 is the best year since you're all the top of the highschool hierarchy and shizz, but uggggh. I'm gonna miss highschool. :(
Finished legal exam today. Probably failed that but w/evs. Two more to go and I'm freeeeeeee.
HOLIDAAAAAYS YIEWWW!

I love old photos. It makes me lol and brings back so many memories. Haha, makes me wonder why I don't remember so many of them. D:

I knowww I stuffed up my business yearlies..I can practically feel it. And that's the one subject everyone keeps asking me how I did. ): I don't think I read the 20 mark report essay question right. -sigh- Fml. I got to stop doing that and concentrate on the damn question properly. BUUUT, 2U maths paper was pretty easy. Hope I'm not jinxing my mark by saying that, but fingers crossed I make a 90+ out of it. :D Only four more exams to go till THE END OF YEAR 11. OMGOSHSHOOTMENAOW! AHHHHHHH! -insert stoned face here-

When I saw this book in Borders last week, I knew I had to buy it, even though I was dead broke. And my gawd, does the book make me happy. IT'S SOOOOOOOOO GOOD DAMNIT! Anyone who hasn't read it must, and anyone who has will know why I'm so enthralled with the series. Suzanne Collins is amazing, and has been bumped up my 'best authors list'. She is seriously amazing, and Catching Fire proves that. The way she creates a story with so many plots and twists makes me envy her with a passion I can't explain. All I can do is gush about it. It kills me that it'll take forever and a day till the next book comes out. Seems like an eternity. I heard that Suzanne had signed contracts for The Hunger Games to be made into a movie, but I'm not too sure about it. Hopefully, the rumour is true. :D :D

On another note, exams are coming up. -kills self-

Haven't blogged in awhile, so I thought might as well. Had a free last period today, so legged it home asap. I've been so tired this whole week, trying to finish all the assignments and stuff. Only have one more to go, and it's for Photography, so not really that fazed about it. Took a well deserved nap this afternoon and woke up feeling more tired than ever, but now I'm all refreshed after my shower. I really should just start sleeping earlier, but I have so many books I want to finish before exam week begins. Reminds me I should start on the notes asap as well.

Oh, and had the more amazing time on Wednesday at Jenni's photography shoot thing. Ness and I got painted all white and just went wild in front of the camera at Bondi Beach. Ahahaha, should have seen the passerbys faces, we seriously looked like freaks. After the shoot, Jenni and her dad left, and Ness and I just chilled on Bondi. It's so beautiful at night, but so friggen cold. The sand gave me the chills x 384723841. We had to go home looking like retards with white hair and most of our body still painted white, but it was well worth it. Ahahaha, just the looks on peoples faces makes it so worth it. The day will forever stay as one of the best memories of my life. :D

Alarm didn't go off today, so I overslept for almost an hour. I was meant to wake up at 8:15 and put the washing up + clean the bathrooms, so I can convince mum about my dedication to chores etc, but I overslept. I'm pretty damn sure it was cos the alarm I set didn't even manage to go off. I have no recollection of actually turning it off at all. ==" Stupid thing. But yes, I was pretty rushed for time in the morning, but still managed to make the 9:44 train to Central. Bumped into George, Tracey and Jo coincidentally, and Maggie was already on the train anyways, so that was all fine. I must say, USYD is definitely my dream uni. It's so pretty and big, and overall, such a fabtastical place. Maggie and I went to two lectures; Bachelor of International and Global Studies as well as Bachelor of Media and Communication. I'm pretty interested in M&C but the ATAR for it is in the high 98's. That seriously just pops my bubble...but I promise myself that I'll definitely study hardcore next year. I really want to get into the M&C course in USYD esp. Apparently the ATAR required to do this course in UTS is much, much lower, but UTS...that's like a last resort kind of uni.

Ended up back in Central afterwards, met up with Jo, Tracey and George again, Jo left, George and Tracey tagged along with Maggie and I to Pepper Lunch to eat. Later went to Kino and bought three books. My list of books pending to be read is getting bigger.

To Be Read:

• The Goose Girl by Shannon Hale
• East by Edith Pattou
• Battle Royale by Koushun Takami
• Prada and Prejudice by Mandy Hubbard
• Wicked by Gregory Macguire
• The Book of a Thousand Days by Shannon Hale

I'm currently reading Ink Exchange by Melissa Marr, and I really want to finish it off just so I can start some new books. I have a few books which are still waiting to be finished off, but I think I'll leave them for now. Really can't wait till the Summer holidays when mum will be leaving for China and I'll have the house to myself for a month. -major excitement-

After Kino, I went off to Starbucks before going off to meet up with some other friends. I'd left Tracey and Jackie already, cos I knew they wouldn't want to go off to Kino with me. But surprise, surprise, they were at Starbucks with Rocky and Raymond. Rocky had to call out "HI JOY!" really loudly...and iuno, I wonder if they were talking about me before, cos Tracey and Jackie had these looks, and Raymond wouldn't look at me. Ugh, I don't get guys sometimes. Went off after that and met up with a bunch of people. Mish and Jenny were talking pics for our photography assignment, and Ben, Ernest and I were posing as their subjects. Hehe, it was heaps fun, but it was getting heaps windy by around 5 and we started looking pretty funky with our messy hair. Now I'm home, thank gawd, but feeling so tired. Ugh. But defs a good day. :D

I thought it was time to change the layout. The old one was a bit stuffy, so yay to this one. I've been meaning to write for awhile now, but my muse is dead. I should be doing my business assignment, but I'm being lazy. I'm off to visit some potential universities tomorrow, so I'm pretty excited about that, although I'm starting to get worried about what path I'd be making when we go into year 12 soon. In a way, I'm scared of growing up. I'm scared of leaving high school. I think high school is great, even with all its unnecessary drama and shizz. We get to spend the majority of our time with friends. But in uni, everyone is going to go their separate ways. More changes are going to happen, and I'm just not sure if I'm ready for that yet. I may sound childish right now, but I sincerely will miss high school. Many people might think I'm a freak for this, but most of my best memories so far have been with my friends. I don't want to go anywhere into the future.

We had school captain speeches today at school. Hayden actually bribed me during maths to vote for him, when I was really just kidding around about it. But he actually pulled out his wallet and asked me how much I wanted. Bit shocked there, but he ended up promising me two icecreams. WINNNN. I must say, he really had balls, although his hands were shaking like crazy. I couldn't hear anything from the second last row, but I read his speech afterwards, and he had seriously bagged out the entire educational system of our school - as well as calling our teachers swine. It was spectacular lol and my respect for him has seriously skyrocketed. Now everyone's FB statuses are all about their worries of Hayden actually winning. Major lol. Esp the small fight between Ronald/James/Chad which broke out over Chad's status. 

Had a free last period which was Business. The girls and the guys fight for the second last row every business lesson, and today was no different. I was seriously fighting all out with Kevin for the desk, and when we'd finally won, Jackie noticed that the teacher had left us a message, stating we could go home early. YESSSS. Had a massively fun time on the train too, just talking and laughing - bagging out Knob's bad breath and talking about Ray and Nic. Although their situation had gotten a bit out of hand, I guess it really wasn't his fault. The guys always blow these things out of proportion. Poor Nic though, she actually liked him back. She had just confessed to him the night before, and he had gently let her down about it, but then on the train in the morning, Ray had to come into our carriage and say something, and Rock had to come and leave Ray's phone on her lap. Obv she would be think big much on this - she's so gullible. I feel bad for her - it's like everyone knew about it except her. How could we have told her without breaking her heart? Sarah and Ness says the reason she believed this and started liking him was because all this attention was most likely the most she'd ever gotten from a guy. D: Is there really a way to let someone down without hurting there feelings?

Mum ended up letting me go, which is epic yay, but I'm not allowed out to Rice Rally tonight. ): So I guess I'll be stuck at home, most likely writing chapter six of TMC tonight. Yaay, I kinda need to update, so I really want to finish off this chapter. I'm really liking where this story is heading, and there's some great scenes coming up in the future, so I really want to get this chapter over and done with so I can get to them. I always tend to get a little writer's block on the filler chapters. Ugh. Sucky.

Anyways, I went home yesterday and took a shower before heading back out with Jessie to go to Ness's party. We didn't end up shopping at all, but watched 'The Ugly Truth'. It's such a lol movie, wasn't absolutely fabulous, but a great Saturday night in film. Hehe. The plot was pretty predicatable, but still, it was such a fun movie. :D Minus the fact that Bobo and Sam kept chucking m'n'ms at my head. Oh, and twisties. Ugh. I had just washed my hair too. ==" After the movie, we went to a Jap restaurant. We basically took up half the restaurant, and they probably made the most they'd ever made in a night with us there. The total for around 24ish people was about $330 something. But the food was pretty good. (: I had to walk home afterwards though, cos Jessie and gang went off to the park later on, so I had alone time with myself hehe. I'm actually not scared of walking home alone at night. I find it was relaxing and peaceful, and the night was so nice. It was like Autumn, which I adore. :D Other than that, nothing more to update. I really should get to finishing off Meggie's layout, I'm so bad and have been so lazy with photoshop these days. I'm so out of practice. But writing comes first, so I knoe I'll be writing something tonight.

Ugh, I hate it when technology stuffs you up. I've been trying to upload the same batch of photos for the past half an hour, and it keeps failing. Thanks a lot, failbook. Anywaaaays, yesterday, 4B went to Day Rice. I thought it'd be a bit more fun, so I was a bit disappointed in the whole thing. Had to travel all the way to Olympic Park, and there wasn't that many things to do, so the journey really wasn't that worth it. Plus, they sold these weird arse hot dogs which curled up like penises and tasted funky...and had seeds in them. Can you say wtf? BUT, we did stumbled upon a Mish Mash warehouse sale, and I bought these really cute white overalls for $20. Scoreeeee! :D

School again tomorrow, lame. Not looking forward to it at all, and we're getting our extension maths tests back. I have to show some results to mum this time, or she'll seriously butcher me. I've be lagging behind this year, and she's starting to notice....UGH, I hate selective schools. FML.

I just read the review for this new book called 'Hush, Hush' by Becca Fitzpatrick on a review blog. It sound's pretty interesting, and Carrie (the owner of the blog) is offering to give away her copy of Hush, Hush's ARC. I'm going to entry, just cos I'm curious about the book, and the cover intrigues me. Fingers crossed that I might get lucky! :D

I found out yesterday that I had inflamed tastebuds, which was the reason why I was feeling so sick and ugh lately. It had hurt so badly every time I swallowed, but at least the swelling has died down now. It doesn't hurt anymore, but my ears still feel very blocked, and everything sounds softer. Checked out the english tutor today, and it seems rather awesome. I know I need as much english tutoring as I can get, so I'm willing to start now. Ness and I were walking back to the station when we walked past Sul Ponte. Someone shouted my name out really loud (I'm assuming it was Egg, cos it sounded like him) and I walked backwards to check, and there was a whole bunch of asian guys there, most were turning back around so I couldn't see their faces, so I only made eye contact with Rocky, then bolted out of there. Ugggh, sometimes, I really wish the bridge between us could be finished already...but I guess it's getting there. Slowly, but hopefully next year will be better. It is our last year, for fucks sake, it better be a good one.

I feel terrible, think I had a fever last night and slept for nearly 11ish hours. My throat feels clogged, but it doesn't hurt, which is weird. I've been drinking green tea all day, I hope it helps detoxify me! Felt soooo sick during work, but I was completely fine in the morning. I was so tired I had to sit down in the shower for a while before gaining enough strength to get up again. Sucks, I thought I could get away with not being sick for most of the year. But I guess it's really just sleep deprivation. I've been lacking sleep for a week now, since I've just finished up my assessment week, and I couldn't sleep in on Friday or the weekends. I hope this goes away soon! I hate being sick. -sniffs-

I'm so happy and content right now. Assessment week for me is officially over, and I have a free day tomorrow. Planning to go op shop shopping tomorrow, and to go wild buying things. My wardrobe needs a little update, plus, I'll be using the money my friends gave me for my birthday, so that'll be $300ish worth of stuff I'll be getting for free. -runs around happily-

Let's see..what happened today? 2U maths test, maths comp, and the stupid guys acting childish again. >> Tree asked me if I'd go out with G-man, I said no, and realised my reason for it is so damn shallow. I can't help it though, the guy's nice, but he has no mouth...I really rather just stay friends. Everything is less complicated this way. But his friends don't seem to get it, they're so pushy and very unsubtle. Plus, they passed me in their car as I was coming out of the bank, and they were shouting his name out at me very loudly..and I just wanted to melt into the ground. Ugh. Damn guys, they'll be the death of me. And tree knows the guys are planning something, but she won't tell me. -sniff- I'm so out of the loop these days.

My last exam for assessment week is tomorrow, and I'm epically excited because I wanna go shopping afterwards. My friends are taking me on a shopping trip for my birthday, so yayness. Free clothes, free everything! (:

Already, I'm feeling lazy once more. With only the 2U Maths exam tomorrow, I'm not stressing, and 2U is pretty easy, so I think I'll chillax for now and get my nerd on after dinner.